Bethany Dillon

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…where there is no water June 21, 2010

Filed under: Christianity,Life — bethanydillon @ 11:34 pm

Can you relate to me in this?

Sometimes I feel like there’s just so much to take in in my quiet time in the morning… especially when I’m in a good season; the Word is alive to me, there’s some consistency/discipline, wrestling seems to have purpose. I’ve been super encouraged by 1 Peter 5 lately (“cast your cares” chapter), the book of Deuteronomy (SOOO much good stuff in there- been my first time to revisit in a couple years I think), and Psalm 63.

This morning, though, when I sat down on the couch with my coffee (yes, that’s #1 on the list, especially if I’m gonna have Jesus-time in the morning), Bible, and journal, I felt the wave of a million different directions hit me. I leafed through the past week in my journal and realized that I’ve been EVERYWHERE in my thoughts, focus, meditation in the Word… even in one single morning. It’s like I have quiet time A.D.D.! In all seriousness, though, it’s been GOOD, but not very focused. I haven’t really lingered anywhere in particular. And sure, sometimes, and somedays, you don’t. But as I was looking through the scribbled pages of my recent journals, I felt this deep, strong need for simplicity and a pause.

More specifically, reading the next chapter in Deuteronomy, then Psalm 63, then 1 Peter 5, then whatever else caught my eye wasn’t the order of the day… or this week.

So, I wrote on the fresh page of my journal under the 6/21:

“Okay… so, where do I go?”

And I really felt His leading towards Psalm 63.

I’ve been stuck there for the past week off and on, and even in THAT chapter, there are so many different things addressed. So, since I recently diagnosed myself with spiritual A.D.D., I decided to stick with the first verse this morning.

O God, you are my God; EARNESTLY I seek you; my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you,

as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.

It was so difficult for me to stay put at Psalm 63:1. Then I looked up “earnestly” and tried to dig in to what that really looks like in my life… to earnestly, whole-heartedly, seriously and sincerely seek Him. Press into Him. Lean on Him. Call for Him.

And then, a very, very simple and profound thing hit me… it happened when I finished my search of “earnest” and reached for the tall glass of icy water that I was craving. Not just wanting, but craving. In case you need me to explain the intensity of my word choice in that, here it is:

1) I live in Texas.

2) I’ve always thought it was hot here in the summer.

3) Now, since I’m 8+ months pregnant and in the Texas summer heat, I think this is pretty close to what hell feels like.

4) That makes me very thirsty.

5) And crave watermelon.

But I digress…

As simple as it sounds, and was, reaching for that glass, and then looking down at my Bible and seeing that line “where there is no water” suddenly highlighted by the Holy Spirit… I realized that this portion of time, this rest stop before my unpredictable day began, was (and always is) a big, tall glass of icy cold water for my very, very (even when I don’t realize it), VERY thirsty soul. And I’m foolish to think that at any other point in my day, in any other direction I’m facing, or with any other person I’m encountering, that there is going to be true water there.

Whether you live in Texas heat or not, you and I both live in a world — and an increasingly desensitized culture– where there truly is NO water.

Can I just leave you there? …I so badly want to ramble on, but I think I should stop there. I think I need to, for myself, even. I want to dwell on that truth and let my Bible-over-familiarized heart grow in affection for the only One who quenches my thirst. To value Him as the source of my refreshment. To even EARNESTLY seek for Him in the moments I can, because in every other moment, I am facing a world in a dry and weary reality without Him.

I’ll leave you with these beautiful words that Jesus spoke to a Samaritan woman at a well one day. I think they’re for us, too.

A woman from Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her, “Give me a drink.” … The Samaritan woman said to Him, “How is it that you, a Jew, ask for a drink from me, a woman of Samaria?” (For Jews have no dealings with Samaritans.)

Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God, and Who it is that is saying to you, ‘Give me a drink,’ you would have asked Him, and He would have given you living water.”

The woman said to Him, “Sir, You have nothing to draw water with, and the well is deep. Where do you get that living water? Are you greater than our father Jacob? He gave us this well and drank from it himself, as did his sons and livestock.”

Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty forever. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”

John 4:7-14


12 Responses to “…where there is no water”

  1. Kensy Says:

    Thank you Bethany!!! I have already had my morning quiet time today, and we even had our weekly family Bible study today, but after reading this blog post of yours now…I feel urged to go read some more…

    Thank you for stretching and challanging me w/ this!!! Tomorrow I leave for Palm Springs, CA (all the way from Nebraska) for a conference called Resolved with speakers like John McArthur!!! I think I will be stretched there too 🙂

  2. theologigal Says:

    Thank you for sharing this – it was very encouraging. And it’s nice to know I’m not the only one who experiences “quiet time A.D.D”!
    – Amanda

  3. Emily Says:

    Here’s a poem I wrote about the woman at the well:

    It’s one of my favorite stories about Jesus 🙂

    I love thinking about Him as water for our souls…so powerful!

  4. Amanda Says:

    I always enjoy reading your blogs Bethany, because they seem to very often relate to what I am going through in my spiritual journey. Lately, by God’s strength, that quiet time with Him has become more and more consistent for me…which I so need! I loved how you described Him as being our fresh drink of water that we cannot find anywhere else in life. It’s SO true and it just compels me to continue on being disciplined in making that time with Him come first thing each day. Thanks for your thoughts and encouragement!!

  5. Heather Says:

    This is a great, great blog! It has encouraged me to start having a quite time everyday. I am ashamed to say I have been very slack in reading the word of God for the past year ( and it has hurt me spiritually), but reading this blog today has made me realize. I need a tall, tall, TALL, glass of refreshing cold water from the word of GOD. Thank you so much Bethany for writing all these blogs that you write, they all encourage me so much.
    God Bless you and your family.
    I will be praying for you, soon to be mother! that is exciting!

  6. alaffoon Says:

    First of all, I found your blog for the first time today. (And believe me, it was a good day to find it… this post spoke directly to me in such a powerful way). I’m so so excited. I’ve been listening to your music since your first album came out, and just so you know…you’ve been there for me through a lot. God has definitely used you in my life.

    Good luck with your last few weeks of pregnancy. You have a cute baby belly. 🙂


  7. jessica Says:

    wow! it is awesome that you have been dwelling on the same scriptures!! john 4 and psalm 63 have both been on my heart for the last few days…good stuff for this dry and weary soul! and, here’s a golden nugget for you…i just learned that in the second chapter of jeremiah, God refers to himself as “the fountain of living water.” so when Jesus told the samaritan woman that he could give her living water, he wasn’t just making another spiritual metaphor…he was pointing her toward the very truth of who he was!! love it!

  8. mark sisco Says:

    Your tweets and this blog are so cool!
    I really, really love reading the scripture your into for the day or the week….keep it coming it a wonderful way to share with your fans…and it s really cool to meditate on the same verses alongside you in the Lord…. Cant wait for you have Lucy James —DILLON ???? Has a nice ring to it..HUH? Shes gonna have her moms stage name…. I TELL YOU THE TRUTH !!! mark

  9. Sarah G. Says:

    Hey, thanks for your thoughts on this. I have been really struggling with even having quiet time with Jesus at any point during the day, I always convince myself I am too busy or that I will do it at a different time during the day (and forget or never do). The verse about how drinking the ‘water’ that is not spiritual-God-sent-water will leave you feeling thirsty really hit me and made me realize how much I need to be with Jesus for quiet time…I mean you can talk to Him throughout the whole day but I feel like really setting aside the time to just visit with Him is something that is really important…I am going to try harder! Thanks alot, again!:)

  10. Beth Says:

    I laughed at loud at your being pregnant in TX analogy. I moved here in ’07 to Texas from TN, and, girl- IT. IS. HOT. I always thought TN was hot- but nothing compares to TX. It’s my 4th summer, and I’m still gettin’ used to it! But it does make for mild winters, which is quite nice!
    You’re my hero for being pregnant in Texas- may God grant you great fortitude and cool breezes! Blessings on your little one, and i pray your delivery and labor are peaceful, beautiful, and covered in His comfort and blessings! Thanks for all your music- it’s a great soundtrack for these days we are livin’! —-Beth

  11. Amber Little Says:

    Rest assured that even if YOU don’t feel focused in your quiet times…GOD IS FOCUSED and is leading you…You are learning what HE wants you to learn if you are doing it correctly! Keep up the GREAT work of even being IN the WORD which is something that many Christians struggle with doing at all!

    God bless you girl!

  12. Callista Grover Says:

    I can relate. I am so often desperate for the living water. Nothing, I mean nothing can satisfy my desert heart. Go to the well!!!

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